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Life is really good.
But I still hate the feeling that people who are close to me are taking over my life and/or replacing me.
Science FCAT next week. I wasn't nervous until I realized if I fail I get placed in a 2 hour remedial class ..
It's already hard for me to fit in everything I want in my schedule now, I don't have time for a remedial class.
I refuse to fail that test. Hah.
I hope tomorrow's enjoyable. I need it to be.
Hope everyone's well.
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By the way, don't act like you know anything about my last entry ...
There's a 98% chance you're wrong.
And a 2% chance you might be wrong.
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[23 Feb 2008|01:30pm] |
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I want to ruin everything I have going for me.
Because everything good in my life is nothing I ever wanted.
I'm in the mood to fuck up.
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[11 Feb 2008|10:24pm] |
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Livejournal was missed.
I forgot how much shit you find out about people through this, hahahah.
I figure I should return the favor at least.
Well, life's weird.
I officially know what it feels like to be swept up in the romance of "teen love".
Huzzah!
After a year of confusion, chaos, mixed signals, disloyalty, ungratefulness, deceit, cowardly actions, and all around being in a completely fucked up relationship we're finally half way out of the well we dug ourselves in.
We don't argue every day anymore, now only a couple times a week (depending on how much alcohol I consume), which is something we're working on.
I've never thought I'd meet a person so open-minded, open-hearted, kind, patient, tolerant, and who respects my prude morals to the fullest.
I wish I was more capable of letting go of the past so I could move on from our shitty history and into where we're at now with open arms.
I've never had a valentine until this year. Elvis has a surprise planned. I have ideas as to what it is, but still no clue. I'm excited.
I can't really think of anything else to update with except I need a better job, a car, and less drama from ungrateful friends, but all of those are more or less insignificant.
EDIT:
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[27 Dec 2007|02:26am] |
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ih8lyfe
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[16 Oct 2007|12:39am] |
He makea me smileeeee
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[05 Oct 2007|04:20pm] |
Clinical depression only sucks when you're untreated.
I, am untreated.
But not for much longer.
I love you.
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[22 Sep 2007|03:23pm] |
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Panic attacks ruin everything.
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[18 Sep 2007|10:27pm] |
I got a job at Bruster's yesterday. Worked today.
I get my license tomorrow.
Woo?
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[10 Sep 2007|04:39pm] |
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I spoke too soon.
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[04 Sep 2007|06:50pm] |
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Best weekend .. ever.
Friday - Saw Kids Like Us/Trample/Fallen From the Sky in Clearwater with Jessica, Jentri, and Xavier. Saw my favorite dudes from FFTS again. Drove back and got back to Winter Springs around 1. Then dropped Jentri and Xavier off, got pizza, then spent the night at Jessicas. I luh dem.
Saturday - Woke up at 2, went to IHOP with Jessica, found Livv chilling in my driveway, then hung out with the girls. Later went to O'Con's with Jentri. Got really drunk. Argued with Elvis a lot. I felt sooo badddd. :(
Sunday - Jentri, Rachael, Livv, and I all spent the night at Jessica's, got really drunk again, met her creepy neighbor..., went swimming. I luh dem too (but not the creepy neighbor).
Monday - We all drove to Publix, spent about 50 bucks on food, went to Rock Springs, found out it didn't open until 4 so drove back to Rachaels and picnic'd it up!, went home, fell asleep sooo early.
I love my girls with all my heart. I'd be lost without those bitchez.
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[29 Aug 2007|12:24am] |
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OKAY BETTER! I'm done with complaining.
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[23 Aug 2007|09:24pm] |
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I want to believe in happiness.
And I want to feel it.
I don't want to hate myself anymore.
I don't want to feel like everyone hates me back.
I don't want to feel completely worthless all the time.
I don't want to feel like the reject/outcast when I'm with basically anyone.
I'm so sick of this, I can't handle this myself.
But I have to. So I'll keep trying.
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I had my birthday party, it was fun.
The next day went to North Carolina for a week, which was also fun.
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[24 Jul 2007|02:08am] |
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 New phone. My birthday's tomorrow. My party is the next day. I'm not excited. Warped tour was fun. I'm really burnt. Jentri forgot the sunscreen. Didn't get to meet Anthony Green, but came extremely close. Met K-Os, Big D and the Kids Table, It Dies Today, and Straylight Run, which was all around pretty good. I didn't like how I had backstagely powers, but barely got to take them to their full advantage. The security guy was really nice, and after I talked to him for a little while he just started letting me back though, which was cool. I'm tired. |
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[13 Jul 2007|10:16pm] |
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Fuck you. Go kick someone else when they're down.
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Lil' Boosie - Wipe Me Down |
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 I have too much free time.
.. Change that.
No more Driver's Ed!!!
Too bad I kind of liked driving around, listening to music, getting food with friends, and having it count as a grade? Not to mention an easy A? |
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[03 Jul 2007|10:44pm] |
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Chaos. Just chaos.
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[01 Jul 2007|03:21am] |
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I made my decision.
I'm still nervous I'm making a bad one.
But I can't keep things like this, it doesn't feel right.
.. Still content!
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